Wow, it's been two months since I last updated my blog. I don't even remember what my last post was about. Apparently it was a self reflection on why I wanted to keep this blog up and running, instead of abandoning it altogether like many other people did, and how I would do that.
I guess my absence for the past two months goes to show that I'm not all that serious about this blog. I didn't make time for it, I don't try and think of what to write on my blog, I didn't even remember I wanted to revive this blog. But why did I come back now?
I started a new chapter in my life two months ago. I'm now pursuing a master's degree in a subject which I genuinely have passion in and wouldn't at all mind doing for the rest of my life. It's such a huge change, yes in terms of the coursework and timetable too, but more importantly in a sense that it makes me more conscious about my future. I keep asking myself, is this what I'm gonna do in my future career? Will I be able to get a job as soon as I graduate? Am I good enough to be what I wanna be? Can I? Will I?
I feel that my course has a very busy timetable, but not very many opportunities to practice. I guess that's the difference between an undergrad course and a master's course. I used to have a marked worksheet for each subject every week (even though they do not count towards my grades), but now I get a tutorial sheet which is not marked, and doesn't take as much time to complete as my undergrad worksheets. That means I'm left to find other means to revise on my own. Other than that, I get 5 practical coursework (or, I'd rather call projects) this term and a few other assessed coursework.
Even though the tutorials are short, I find the projects take a bigger portion of my time. Perhaps not because they are hard, as some other people have completed the project within a few days, but because I need to revise the materials, learn some of the things that weren't taught in class and figure out what I'm supposed to do. People say that once you know what you need to do, it's not as hard to put it together and build the program. Unfortunately for me, I'm still on that first stage...
Outside of my study, I'm very excited about attending tech talks, workshops, or hackathons. I actually spend my weekends looking through Eventbrite to find interesting events I could go to. And damn, there are SO many events in London! It's such a shame how I have lived my three years in the UK without ever attending any of this kind of event. I can't believe I wasted all those time. I could have learned so much from attending free events like these.
Well, now is my chance! As it's my last year of studying in the UK, I'd like to make the most out of it. Every time there is an opportunity, I would go to a tech event. Fortunately London has an amazing transport system which allows me to go to all these far away places for those events. My university also organise various events regularly and invite companies to give a talk on campus. I feel like I've just started living my life. I feel like I've been dead for the past 21 years and just started living now!
It is amazing how these events could connect students with people from various companies and startups to share their views and ideas. That's why I don't wanna miss it. I don't wanna miss it coz I know that if I do, I'd miss an opportunity to learn something new and build a connection.
However, sometimes I also feel that it could get too much. At least three days in my typical week I would have an event to go to. That doesn't leave me much time to revise and do work, as coming home from a 30-min tube ride would wear me out and beg for some time to chill and rest. Am I doing this wrong? Should I revisit my life priorities and get it straight? Maybe I should spend more time revising than attending these tech events. I'm a student after all. Isn't it a student's main responsibility to study? But these events also offer learning opportunities. The kind of learning that I may not get at university. Am I wrong for wanting to attend a lot of events?
I spend my nights thinking of these things before bed. I would look at my calendar and plan my next three days. What time to get up, whether I'll have time to eat at home, whether I could go home first or wait on campus or go to these events straight after lecture. Also, whether I should really go to this event at all, how much time I'll have left for doing work, whether I should cancel this other event or not. The list is endless.
I have only recently realised that one of the biggest reasons why I can't sleep is because I have a lot of things in mind. It's bad, but I don't know how to control it otherwise. I'm an anxious person by nature. I tend to overthink things. Every little thing makes me nervous and leaves me restless.
Sighs.
That's when I remembered about this blog. I thought writing out my feelings and thoughts would relieve a little stress, and it's about time this blog gets an update anyway lol.
I guess that's the answer. I would never be able to maintain a blog that would sell and get millions of followers (are you kidding? I don't even have 20 lol). I can't afford to regularly publish updates. I don't have a specific theme that I can write well on. But I can keep this blog as a personal notebook. I'll know I can write my heart out here whenever I want to. And this is why I want to keep this blog up and running.
I guess my absence for the past two months goes to show that I'm not all that serious about this blog. I didn't make time for it, I don't try and think of what to write on my blog, I didn't even remember I wanted to revive this blog. But why did I come back now?
I started a new chapter in my life two months ago. I'm now pursuing a master's degree in a subject which I genuinely have passion in and wouldn't at all mind doing for the rest of my life. It's such a huge change, yes in terms of the coursework and timetable too, but more importantly in a sense that it makes me more conscious about my future. I keep asking myself, is this what I'm gonna do in my future career? Will I be able to get a job as soon as I graduate? Am I good enough to be what I wanna be? Can I? Will I?
I feel that my course has a very busy timetable, but not very many opportunities to practice. I guess that's the difference between an undergrad course and a master's course. I used to have a marked worksheet for each subject every week (even though they do not count towards my grades), but now I get a tutorial sheet which is not marked, and doesn't take as much time to complete as my undergrad worksheets. That means I'm left to find other means to revise on my own. Other than that, I get 5 practical coursework (or, I'd rather call projects) this term and a few other assessed coursework.
Even though the tutorials are short, I find the projects take a bigger portion of my time. Perhaps not because they are hard, as some other people have completed the project within a few days, but because I need to revise the materials, learn some of the things that weren't taught in class and figure out what I'm supposed to do. People say that once you know what you need to do, it's not as hard to put it together and build the program. Unfortunately for me, I'm still on that first stage...
Outside of my study, I'm very excited about attending tech talks, workshops, or hackathons. I actually spend my weekends looking through Eventbrite to find interesting events I could go to. And damn, there are SO many events in London! It's such a shame how I have lived my three years in the UK without ever attending any of this kind of event. I can't believe I wasted all those time. I could have learned so much from attending free events like these.
Well, now is my chance! As it's my last year of studying in the UK, I'd like to make the most out of it. Every time there is an opportunity, I would go to a tech event. Fortunately London has an amazing transport system which allows me to go to all these far away places for those events. My university also organise various events regularly and invite companies to give a talk on campus. I feel like I've just started living my life. I feel like I've been dead for the past 21 years and just started living now!
It is amazing how these events could connect students with people from various companies and startups to share their views and ideas. That's why I don't wanna miss it. I don't wanna miss it coz I know that if I do, I'd miss an opportunity to learn something new and build a connection.
However, sometimes I also feel that it could get too much. At least three days in my typical week I would have an event to go to. That doesn't leave me much time to revise and do work, as coming home from a 30-min tube ride would wear me out and beg for some time to chill and rest. Am I doing this wrong? Should I revisit my life priorities and get it straight? Maybe I should spend more time revising than attending these tech events. I'm a student after all. Isn't it a student's main responsibility to study? But these events also offer learning opportunities. The kind of learning that I may not get at university. Am I wrong for wanting to attend a lot of events?
I spend my nights thinking of these things before bed. I would look at my calendar and plan my next three days. What time to get up, whether I'll have time to eat at home, whether I could go home first or wait on campus or go to these events straight after lecture. Also, whether I should really go to this event at all, how much time I'll have left for doing work, whether I should cancel this other event or not. The list is endless.
I have only recently realised that one of the biggest reasons why I can't sleep is because I have a lot of things in mind. It's bad, but I don't know how to control it otherwise. I'm an anxious person by nature. I tend to overthink things. Every little thing makes me nervous and leaves me restless.
Sighs.
That's when I remembered about this blog. I thought writing out my feelings and thoughts would relieve a little stress, and it's about time this blog gets an update anyway lol.
I guess that's the answer. I would never be able to maintain a blog that would sell and get millions of followers (are you kidding? I don't even have 20 lol). I can't afford to regularly publish updates. I don't have a specific theme that I can write well on. But I can keep this blog as a personal notebook. I'll know I can write my heart out here whenever I want to. And this is why I want to keep this blog up and running.
